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megatronix) wrote2018-10-23 01:31 am
megatronix) wrote2018-10-23 01:31 am
Just life, movies, stuff like that
Over the weekend, we watched:
the first 1/2 of Ferdinand
Maze Runner 3
The Kindergarten Teacher (that one was just me)
Ant Man and the Wasp
I think that's everything? Ok, I think that's all. So, off I go to read myself to sleep!
Oh quickly, speaking of reading oneself to sleep...
I'm currently reading the 7th book of the How to Train Your Dragon series to Homer. He fell asleep to that tonight (and every other night, we've been reading this series a while!)
I'm reading the 7th Harry Dresden book to myself. XD
It's taking me forever to get through that, because I keep reading other things. I'm also reading a pile of books from the library, including Stephen King's On Writing, How to Fall in Love with a Man Who Lives in a Bush, my friend's zombie novel, and several others I have stacked but haven't actually read at all yet. Which happens to be Idol's theme this week!! I am going to have to write a ton tomorrow and see what comes out. I'm not sure if I want to do fiction or non-.... Hmmmmm.... I better get it submitted tomorrow too, though, because 9am comes way too early on Wednesday. Tuesday night is my own personal deadline.
Anyway, off to bed I go. Oh! I submitted a job application today, first one in ages and ages. Wish me luck! I'd be both excited to get it, and terrified too. It's working at my son's school as as classroom assistant, basically, in various classrooms. Hours and pay are good and would be really awesome, actually! (Terrified only because I haven't had regular work outside the home in like 8 years).
Also, I typed way more than I thought I would about The Kindergarten Teacher as a comment tobleodswean , so I think I'll put that under a cut here. Don't click unless you're ok with ALL the spoilers!! I recommend just watching it on Netflix and then coming on back to read my thoughts (if you want!).
spoilers below:
Yesss to the scene where she helps him with the 911 call. She knows he's scared and she loves him and she wants him to get help if he wants help. The ultimate of sacrificing herself to save him. But it is just so horrible that it's true that she was the only one listening to him. "I have a poem..." :( :( :(
And it's sad that she both wanted to give up everything to nurture him, but also, I think, she seemed to want to be like him. Because she said there's no room for someone like him, and the world would erase him, like it did her. That was so sad.
I felt sad that she did seem disappointed in her own children, because she wanted so much more, but she had no voice to claim more. She couldn't get anyone to hear/appreciate her voice in her poetry class, either. She had to use Jimmy's voice to get any accolades at all.
The romp with the professor seemed weird, I agree. The more I think on that, the more I wonder if she was just playing him, in a way. Because she went in there to talk to him and was being really genuine. She thanks him for being invited to stay in the class, and then he kisses her. He changes the dynamic. She can tell he's interested, and maybe that bothers her and/or intrigues her. Yet, she doesn't leave, she instead reads him her own work. And he doesn't care for it. But she lets him get close again and then has sex with him, I think possibly in part to just be in the moment(?), or potentially with the foresight to know she was going to reveal that those were a little boy's poems, like almost to make him embarrassed for himself, to point out what she saw as his weakness. Maybe she was angry that he got all hot for her thinking she was into a girlfriend named Anna, and recognized that he doesn't appreciate the true beauty of Jimmy's poetry, because he's just using it for his own lustful fantasies.
It's possible she took some satisfaction in revealing that to him. The dialogue is interesting in the club. The professor says something like "there's a difference in being an artist and being an art appreciator, don't you think?" And she says, "Yes," and I thought she doesn't seem as upset as I thought she'd be in hearing that.... And I wonder if it's because she was like, yes, YOU are just an art appreciator and not a true artist, professor guy!!
Or who knows! Maybe she was really upset but just masked it, because she just knew it was worth it to sacrifice the class, knowing she'd be booted from the class once she revealed it was really Jimmy's poems she was using, and believed it was all worth it if only to get this little boy some recognition. Hmm...
Or maybe that only came later, the knowing she was going to expose herself, and maybe that was just another level in her willingness to shed anything that was good for her, in order to push Jimmy in the direction of success and recognition.
She was constantly not recognized, even by Jimmy. There's that one moment when he says "I missed you" outside the playground. But it's so sad, because even "Anna" turned out to be the teacher helper, Megan. It's not even Lisa! And then he doesn't feel safe at the end and wants to call the police. Like she just can't do right in anyone's eyes.
But oh man, how she lied in order to take him to the poetry reading, AND she kept him at her house that night. I was like lady, omg you're losing your mind!! You can't just do that!
Then it's sad because she basically says goodbye to her family, planning to leave everyone behind, like finally breaking out of this life that she sees as holding her back, when really, it's just her life. And everyone has feelings of mediocrity sometimes, but I think discovering Jimmy really woke her up to the potential in life, that there was more out there that she wanted, but she felt it was already too late, in a way, with her own family.
But then I think there's that hint of progress, her daughter reaches out and apologizes but in a very non-poetic, non-intellectual way "sorry that was kinda bitchy", which I think wasn't enough for Lisa... And her son reaches out to talk to her about his Marine explorations, and she for once just really listens, and is the most attentive to them when she knows she's about to freaking leave!! It's like my god, no, just keep doing that, don't leave them all...
At the same time, it must be SO hard to see this extraordinarily gifted child just left alone, not recognized by anyone else at all.
Oh man....
"I have a poem." That was the perfect/tragic way to end that. Holy crap.
Very powerful stuff, for sure!! The film itself is like a poem, lots of layers and ways to interpret and sift through it.
And that's about it. ok NOW I'm going to bed. G'night, friends! :) <3
the first 1/2 of Ferdinand
Maze Runner 3
The Kindergarten Teacher (that one was just me)
Ant Man and the Wasp
I think that's everything? Ok, I think that's all. So, off I go to read myself to sleep!
Oh quickly, speaking of reading oneself to sleep...
I'm currently reading the 7th book of the How to Train Your Dragon series to Homer. He fell asleep to that tonight (and every other night, we've been reading this series a while!)
I'm reading the 7th Harry Dresden book to myself. XD
It's taking me forever to get through that, because I keep reading other things. I'm also reading a pile of books from the library, including Stephen King's On Writing, How to Fall in Love with a Man Who Lives in a Bush, my friend's zombie novel, and several others I have stacked but haven't actually read at all yet. Which happens to be Idol's theme this week!! I am going to have to write a ton tomorrow and see what comes out. I'm not sure if I want to do fiction or non-.... Hmmmmm.... I better get it submitted tomorrow too, though, because 9am comes way too early on Wednesday. Tuesday night is my own personal deadline.
Anyway, off to bed I go. Oh! I submitted a job application today, first one in ages and ages. Wish me luck! I'd be both excited to get it, and terrified too. It's working at my son's school as as classroom assistant, basically, in various classrooms. Hours and pay are good and would be really awesome, actually! (Terrified only because I haven't had regular work outside the home in like 8 years).
Also, I typed way more than I thought I would about The Kindergarten Teacher as a comment to
bleodswean , so I think I'll put that under a cut here. Don't click unless you're ok with ALL the spoilers!! I recommend just watching it on Netflix and then coming on back to read my thoughts (if you want!). spoilers below:
Yesss to the scene where she helps him with the 911 call. She knows he's scared and she loves him and she wants him to get help if he wants help. The ultimate of sacrificing herself to save him. But it is just so horrible that it's true that she was the only one listening to him. "I have a poem..." :( :( :(
And it's sad that she both wanted to give up everything to nurture him, but also, I think, she seemed to want to be like him. Because she said there's no room for someone like him, and the world would erase him, like it did her. That was so sad.
I felt sad that she did seem disappointed in her own children, because she wanted so much more, but she had no voice to claim more. She couldn't get anyone to hear/appreciate her voice in her poetry class, either. She had to use Jimmy's voice to get any accolades at all.
The romp with the professor seemed weird, I agree. The more I think on that, the more I wonder if she was just playing him, in a way. Because she went in there to talk to him and was being really genuine. She thanks him for being invited to stay in the class, and then he kisses her. He changes the dynamic. She can tell he's interested, and maybe that bothers her and/or intrigues her. Yet, she doesn't leave, she instead reads him her own work. And he doesn't care for it. But she lets him get close again and then has sex with him, I think possibly in part to just be in the moment(?), or potentially with the foresight to know she was going to reveal that those were a little boy's poems, like almost to make him embarrassed for himself, to point out what she saw as his weakness. Maybe she was angry that he got all hot for her thinking she was into a girlfriend named Anna, and recognized that he doesn't appreciate the true beauty of Jimmy's poetry, because he's just using it for his own lustful fantasies.
It's possible she took some satisfaction in revealing that to him. The dialogue is interesting in the club. The professor says something like "there's a difference in being an artist and being an art appreciator, don't you think?" And she says, "Yes," and I thought she doesn't seem as upset as I thought she'd be in hearing that.... And I wonder if it's because she was like, yes, YOU are just an art appreciator and not a true artist, professor guy!!
Or who knows! Maybe she was really upset but just masked it, because she just knew it was worth it to sacrifice the class, knowing she'd be booted from the class once she revealed it was really Jimmy's poems she was using, and believed it was all worth it if only to get this little boy some recognition. Hmm...
Or maybe that only came later, the knowing she was going to expose herself, and maybe that was just another level in her willingness to shed anything that was good for her, in order to push Jimmy in the direction of success and recognition.
She was constantly not recognized, even by Jimmy. There's that one moment when he says "I missed you" outside the playground. But it's so sad, because even "Anna" turned out to be the teacher helper, Megan. It's not even Lisa! And then he doesn't feel safe at the end and wants to call the police. Like she just can't do right in anyone's eyes.
But oh man, how she lied in order to take him to the poetry reading, AND she kept him at her house that night. I was like lady, omg you're losing your mind!! You can't just do that!
Then it's sad because she basically says goodbye to her family, planning to leave everyone behind, like finally breaking out of this life that she sees as holding her back, when really, it's just her life. And everyone has feelings of mediocrity sometimes, but I think discovering Jimmy really woke her up to the potential in life, that there was more out there that she wanted, but she felt it was already too late, in a way, with her own family.
But then I think there's that hint of progress, her daughter reaches out and apologizes but in a very non-poetic, non-intellectual way "sorry that was kinda bitchy", which I think wasn't enough for Lisa... And her son reaches out to talk to her about his Marine explorations, and she for once just really listens, and is the most attentive to them when she knows she's about to freaking leave!! It's like my god, no, just keep doing that, don't leave them all...
At the same time, it must be SO hard to see this extraordinarily gifted child just left alone, not recognized by anyone else at all.
Oh man....
"I have a poem." That was the perfect/tragic way to end that. Holy crap.
Very powerful stuff, for sure!! The film itself is like a poem, lots of layers and ways to interpret and sift through it.
And that's about it. ok NOW I'm going to bed. G'night, friends! :) <3